~R U Prepared for Imbolc?~

The Pagan Wheel of the Year
YULE~December 21
IMBOLC~February 2
OSTARA~March 21
BELTANE~May 1
LITHA~June 21
LUGHNASSADH~August 1
MABON~Sept 21
SAMHAIN~Oct. 31 / Nov. 1

~~FEB ~ Snow MooN~~

I feel like Im gonna jump out of my skin today......
Could swear its the moon....
energizing me with her light.....
Last nite as I lie talking on the phone...
trying to crack my back...
in the backyard of a friends house...
She was there......
above me...
all bright, mysterious & surrounded by a ring of clouds......
she was taunting me to run skyclad thru the yard....
I didn't of course!
TOO COLD for one....
& it wasn't my own yard....lol
but...It crossed my twisted little mind......

Ever get that feeling....
big changes are coming?
U R to get ready...
I can't explain it......
It is like I am seeing me from the eyes of others....
Kinda like putting myself in check...
I am on the edge.....
& TH at 10:45 pm is the full moon for me.
:::note to self:::
TH nite.....
ask what is going on....

Full Moon:
Use it to banishing unwanted influences in your life, creating protection magik and performing divination. Setting up plans and releasing old patterns or issues are all good activities to focus on. Full Moon magik can be conjured during the 3 days prior to the rise of the Full Moon, the night of the Full Moon and during the 3 days after.

February ~ Snow moon ~In certain parts of the world, snow is usually the deepest in this month, thus the name snow moon. This is a good time to focus your magik on home, hearth and family.

2007 - Full Moon Schedule (all noted in UNIVERSAL TIME (UTC)

January 3 / 13:57 - Wolf Moon
February 2 / 5:45 - Snow Moon
March 3 / 23:17 - Worm Moon
April 2 / 17:15 - Rain Moon
May 2 / 10:09 - Flower Moon
June 1 / 1:04 - Strawberry Moon
June 30 / 13:49 - Blue Moon **
July 30 / 0:48 - Deer Moon
August 28 / 10:35 - Fish Moon
September 26 / 19:45 - Fruit Moon
October 26 / 4:52 - Harvest Moon
November 24 / 14:30 - Hunter's Moon
December 24 / 1:16 - Cold Moon

~~~Blessed BE~~~

~~The Universe is being VERY generous!!~~

Out w/ the OLD...=(

In with the NEW =)

Stubeans....(yes...ladies....hes still available!...& so gonna kill me for sayin that ...LOL)....the evil landlord that he is....bought new appliances for his South Mountain house....and in the process accepted my offer to buy the stove which came out of that house for $200.00. WooT...wOoT!

I guess I no longer have any excuses for always ordering out...or getting foods from AJ's (delicious already prepared gourmet foods)

U know...I haven't checked in with the universe today....I really must go and thank her....she's been very generous lately with my life =)

Have U counted your blessings today??

~~~DVD's for Brico's Peace of Mind ~~~

After Brico told me to join the rest of the world regarding my disproportionate number of DVD's vs. VHS, I started thinking about why that is??

In comparison to the collections I have seen in friends houses.....Brico is correct. My collection is pathetic....

The only logical conclusion I could come to....is that for the last 3.5 yrs I have been buried in criminal psych, quantitative, qualitative research methodology, the DSM-IV-TR & not having time to enjoy DVD's...more less buy them!!

SO......now that I have the TV, a little bit of time to enjoy a movie or two....any suggestions? Keep in mind.....I'm still not a fan of accumulating DVD's via purchasing...just for the sake of clutter...but...if after watching a movie via netflix....it seems worth watching again?....I just might add to my little collection.

~~um...YeaH...ThatS ALOT of TV~~

Really BIG boxes......in fact two trips to FryS electronics was necessary!...Did ALOT of research....so much in fact I was driving friends and work-mates crazy with questions.

Told U the boxes were big....I'm 5'9......My little neighbor kids are sooo gonna LOVE me when I show up with this one..huh?....Remember playing in the new frig box when U were little?.....Or sledding in the Summer down the big hills by the house? Of course this was after cutting 'windows' ?...yeah....good times.
Boring details for techies:
Mitsubishi 57" DLP Projection 1080p HDTVModel: WD57731 57" Screen • DLP Projection TV • 3 A/V Inputs • 3 S-VHS Inputs • Multi-Brand Remote Control

Built-In HDTV Receiver
57" Screen
DLP Projection TV
3 A/V Inputs
3 S-VHS Inputs
Sleep Timer
2 HD Component Video Inputs
Multi-Brand Remote Control
16:9 DLP 1080p HDTV.Digital Cable Ready w/Cable CardSlot.Can be Used As A ComputerMonitor Monitor (PC DVI Input).Mitsubishi Exclusive 1080p DLPLight Engine.6 Primary ColorSystem.True 1080p Processibg.4DVideo Noise Reduction.(2) HDMI Inputs."Clear Thought" Easy Connect.Rear IEEE1394 Connection.
51.5(w) X 36.3(h) X 18.0(d)

OK..now before anyone else decides to raz me on the issue of VHS on my shelves....((as Brico so nicely pointed out ....))...I have DVD's as well.....most of them are in the bedroom armoir ((to watch on the 36 plasma )). It takes money to replace all those classics that I have on VHS.....& yes ...now that I have a real tv...I will begin that process.....((any investors ??))

**Last nite...Kory barked at & chased a bug walking along a leaf on the National Geographic channel!....LOL I guess I know what I'll be leaving on for them when I go to work...huh?

~~Progression~~

Sisters Mary Catherine, Maria Theresa, Katherine Marie, Rose Frances, & Mary Kathleen left the Convent on a trip to St. Patrick's Cathedral in New York City and were sight-seeing on a Tuesday in July.

It was hot and humid in town and their traditional garb was making them so uncomfortable, they decided to stop in at Patty McGuire's Pub for a cold soft drink.

Patty had recently added special legs to his barstools, which were the talk of the fashionable eastside neighborhood.

All 5 Nuns sat up at the bar and were enjoying their Cokes when Monsignor Riley and Father McGinty entered the bar through the front door..........

~~Priceless~~

Make-up : $60





Tattoo : $ 250.00






Breast Augmentation : 5000.00




Forgetting to "tuck nuts" : PRICELESS!!!!

~~13 Emotion Evoking Smells~~

1. Leather
2. The spot between the cheek and the soft soft muzzle of a horse
3. skin....a baby's skin right after a bath, my partners skin, the pads of my puppys feet.
4. Fresh cut grass
5. Patchouli
6. Chicken, ( my macaw) she smells like fruit loops
7. Freshly showered, shaved & cologned man.
8. A pine forest floor
9. The crisp air where coal is being used as fuel.
10. Tibetan Incense
11. Old Books
12. Clothes in the summer that have suntan oil embedded into them.
13. Winter nites when fireplaces are burning

~~~DAILY OM~~~

The Sentiment Beneath
Sagittarius Daily Horoscope
People I encounter today will not be articulating their thoughts completely.
((ah....yeah!..whew...I thought I as going nuts!))
A perceptive and curious mood can inspire you to employ all of your senses when conversing with others.
((some peoople were victims of mine today......sorry!))
As a result, you may find yourself reading between the lines while engaged in dialogues at home and at work.
((OMGoddess!.....so on the mark...))
You will likely begin to notice that there is meaning lurking behind others’ speech, both in their enunciations and the manner in which they speak.
((Once again.....thought I was being unfair to others today))
As you may respond more attentively and sympathetically to that which others share with you today, this may be a good time to strike up challenging or charged discussions with loved ones and colleagues.
((um...I DID that......not received as well by all....but some were fine with it))
We repeatedly discover that there is more to what the individuals we encounter say when we make an effort to look beyond the meaning of their words and examine the underlying significance of their tone, posture, and gestures.
((no shit....thats why I LOVE studying behaviours))
When we are cognizant of what is being said without words, we can more readily understand those to whom we relate in our daily lives.
((I am trying to..... :) ))
You will grow ever more perceptive and skilled at interpersonal relations today as you practice detecting the sentiments beneath.

~~~Quote of the Day~~~

During a phone conversation ......
w/ Dougie-fresh
The topic turned to when the last time.....
I answered a couple weeks ago when in reality
it was 1 month ago ((after looking at the calendar )).
So....did U see him again?
NOPE
um......Y?
just because
ah.....well did U kill him?
HA!........

~~LooK WhaT ArriveD TodaY~~

~~Look closely!.....
My new little guides in the nite...
are dancing towards the meaning of love!!!
I have THE ONE to thank
.... for the added illumination!
In oh...so...many ways
Doesn't she ROCK!~~

~~A bit of Advice~~

Loudly exclaiming to the pups
"hey...look girls"
"we have a woodpecker!"
does not...
I repeat
DOES NOT
allow U time to go and get the camera
a. it flies away
& b. now the dogs wait for it to come back
Hence......
the days between seeing it
& posting a picture
HA!

~~Silent Sunday StatementS~~

Ok
I am ready to talk…..
But it’s Sunday!
So….
Instead I will blog.
For any of my new readers….
Silent Sundays are my way of forcing myself
to stay inside my own thoughts…..
no TV….no phone calls…..no neighborly chats at the door.

I have so much going on ….
So much to share…
Don’t even know where to start….
Actually haven’t written because of that……lol

So…lets see ..where to start….
The new job?.....going well.
Busier than a one-armed paper hanger.
Great team….immense diversity….just the way I like it!
VERY knowledgeable people…..I feel like I am still playing catch-up.

Emotionally as of late I’ve been in a strange place….
Still can not define it ….so I will not try…..
Most def in a place of change….
not willing to deal with behaviors I would’ve previously.
& not in an angry way……just matter of fact…..
Learning tho that when these thoughts are communicated
…the are NOT received with the same level of openness.

Makes me wonder….what is it about the truth that makes them
..run…never to call again…..such big talkers…..yet…
…when it comes down to it….inexperience, wonderment & shock prevail??
I have had a few conversations over the last couple weeks….
Heart to hearts …..asking the same questions….
….yes from qualified individuals….((er…have a penis))

The answers were rather interesting:
No guy really wants to hear that….
It’s the game…..the challenge….
U scare them….but they are intrigued enough to play……
w/out bringing their game….
& realize too late they are out of their league.
U communicate too well…..the male of the species doesn’t.
Um….yeah…..U have a gun!
Some guys might want to….but fear performance anxiety….
U can be rather sexually demanding ….LOL
Guys just are not used to women who play the game as well.
U are a different one…….((whatever that means?!? LOL))

What I gathered from all the honest feedback ….was that I need to find
An intellectual sexual freak who doesn’t mind that I sleep with a 9mm…
Anyone?? LOL

Ok.. enough about that …….I am still trying to find a new TV
I’ve waited til superbowl time …..
Research shows it’s the best time for sales on high end TV’s.
I AM SOOOO CONFUSED!! I know I want LCD HDTV with HDMI.
But ….what brands are better than others??
Any input would be appreciated =)
I just know no matter what I buy……as soon as I walk out the door….
…the upgraded model will be on the shelf….and less expensive!! LOL

oh....& in case U are reading......U know who U are...
(when I asked what U thought this eve.....I really did mean it....)
I am still waiting for that synopsis.....bon noite mi nueva especial amiga =)

Alright…..its after 10 pm……..I really should get the rest of my work done.
And prepare for work tomarrow……ciao bellas…..

~~~I say and U think~~~

U know how it works....Click HERE to play along each week......
but for now?
Get ur brain matter movin!....

Audition :: Butterflies
Urgent :: NOW
Lunch :: box
Adult :: magazines (yikes ...where did that come from?...)
Mug :: Saxaphone Teachers Coffee.....
Awful :: Sad
Comics :: Beetle Bailey, Jughead, Richie Rich,
Damage :: control
Kicks :: mischief
Experience :: chalk it up as.....

**Okay....I think because I chose lunch box...
I was taken back to memories of my saxaphone teacher picking me up in the am so we could have lessons before school started.... & I always struggled with my books, lunch, sax. She always managed to have her coffee mug on the dashboard......it forever perched on the edge...but never spilled.

as for the adult magazines comment??
well....after thinking about early morning music lessons....I had visions of Karen Drayer also being there before school having her flute lessons.

Karen & I were 'best friends' from 1st grade thru college. Inseperable.....supportive....& 'lifes secrets' holders for eachother as we grew. When I think of all the time Karen and I spent together ((I stayed at her house when my parents would travel for months ...and she at mine when her folks were oot))...... I remember going into the basement behind those doors where stuff was stored at her house.

Between the boxes of xmas decorations, winter skiing equipment, & other normal 'stuff' a family accumulates over a lifetime .......were Dr. Drayer's Playboys. Stacks & stacks of them. Karen & I would spend hours looking at the pictures....wondering if we would be that pretty when we grew up. We did not think there was anything strange about analyzing their bodies. Afterall.....they were beautiful and tastefully done photos.

Perhaps this early exposure to these type of magazines could be the reason I am such a sexual being today? We learned about sex thru the articles, the cartoons, & the messages sent to us thru the various pics.....of course he not only collected Playboy but also Penthouse & the most coveted little goldmine of a book called FORUM.

Yeah...now that I really look back at that scene.....I realize the affect it had on my sexuality. LOL

~~~Apparently, I am a Music Whore~~~

It was only a matter of time....we all knew it would eventually happen.....yup....

In addition to Black Betty...my 8GB Nano...(2,000 songs) Meet Big Momma...80GB......
now......
if space for 20,000 songs, 20 hrs of playback, or 6.5 hours of video playback isnt enough
well.....
then I think I have an issue...& if U are wondering? YES...Pixie..it is partly your fault..w/ all those "hey...go here, go there, listen to this, shake your booty to that, groove yourself silly, bump your ...." well U get the idea! ...mmmph!
Now GO..I have music to find, load, buy, organize, & yes.. groove myself silly to!!!

~~~I say and U think~~~

Here we go again.................

Episode :: I'm having an
Source :: of the issue
Jerk :: off!
Introduce :: meet =)
Ralph :: the rat
Stare :: into my eyes!!......
Cast :: a stone...if U dare.....
Scenario :: where I had that episode.....
Flu :: shot
Mad :: as a hatter

~~~What the?~~~

LOL...ok....I was answering a comment
& this was my word verification? ZFART
Does Blogger have new german people who have gas issues?
& while we're at it
What the…..
fuck is up with blogger?
I can sign in….but then
It won’t load a picture
&
better yet
I go to sign back out
thinking
if I clear my browser
& start over
to be nice to blogger
it won’t let me
OUT!
….so…
I close that window
clear cache
clear temp
clear whatever the fuck needs to be cleared
& open a new window
LOL
guess what?
Im still signed into Blogger
AGGHHH!!
once again
I ask?
WHAT THE....
which is it
in or out
(((well….both if you ask me…& repeat as often as necessary!)))
errrrr
sorry
lost myself there
what were we talking about??

~~~A Little Reminder~~~

Sometimes we forget
to take the time
to recognize the richness
that defines our lives.
We get caught up
in thinking about “what we don’t have”
rather than all the abundance we do enjoy.
Where does this leave us?
in perpetual conflict with our desire for more
whether we crave time, convenience, wealth, or enlightenment.
Yet understanding and truly appreciating
our blessings
can be as simple as walking a mile in another’s shoes
In America
we live insular lives
we do not comprehend the full scope
of our prosperity that is relative to our sisters and brothers in humanity.
If U do…
slowdown, observe
take stock in your blessings
everything U take for granted
each and everyday
U may find compassion & a bit of guilt flooding your heart
Open your heart further…
let the awareness help U attain deeper gratitude & appreciation
of your blessings!
I had a conversation today
that reminded me to take stock
that yes...
money is nice
however
it is not THE KEY
to the happiness......
I wish for this person =)

~~~Quote of the Day~~~

During car ride discussion on our porn habits....
After one explained their reasoning for not being an avid watcher of porn
"I'd rather practice ...than watch"
I explained...nope..not me....
I love watching it while doing it!
& out of the darkness of the backseat....yeah!.....
"It's like watching the food channel when you're eating!"
Holla!

~~~Quote of the Day~~~

"Preparation H......On the whole....it feels gr8!"

Heard at the bank.......one teller to another.......I think its from Austin Powers.....when Scotty is talking to Dr. EViiiiiL....butt (heehee) I could be wrong.

OK.....I will get U all updated soon ....I promise...I know U all miss me!

~~~I say and U think~~~

B~~Cause it has been toooo long.....

Incomplete :: sentence
Bobby :: pin
Chopstick :: simplicity
Trauma :: wound
Hesitate ::censored
Leap :: of faith
Magnify :: focus
Yards :: freshly cut grass
Alexander :: the gr8
Fracture :: slice......

~~Oh My Aching Head~~

Soooooo......
Good News
.........Bad News
I survived the 2 day techie
"learn a new programming language crash course"
.........I caught a cold from SOMEONE
(either the teacher who flew in from DC or Emir....)
I thought I had escaped getting a cold
this winter
I thought my head was going to blow off last nite
Hot
Cold
Turn on the overhead fan
get another blanket
ALL
NITE
so......
I am home today
finally fell asleep around 5 am
Finishing my final edits for my proposal
there is a reason for everything....
funny thing?
read this....my daily OM for Sagittarius
They know!....
U really should start trusting them....
yeah....U!

You may feel sensible & realistic today
address pressing obligations at work and at home
Be careful when facing decisions with many choices
If none of the options before you seems to correspond to your individual needs,
you may find yourself in a quandary today.
You should feel comfortable asking for more time to make your decisions.
Your diligence and patience can positively impact your decision-making capabilities by ensuring you have the resources you need to feel sure of yourself.
Impulse directs us toward choices that feel right upon our initial inspection,
but later prove to be less than enriching.
We can avoid this
by approaching decision-making sensibly and logically.
We are less apt to be attracted to flashy alternatives
when we are focused
on determining longterm satisfaction
in the outcomes.
Our personal philosophies can guide us
leading us toward options
that allow us to stay true to ourselves.
Your prudent and practical mindset will help you craft a destiny that is uniquely yours today.

So.....it is OKAY that I have not made up my crazy mind on a new vehicle!......so THERE!

~~B~cause U Needed to Know!~~

I am Living the Dream here!!......My brain matter is in pain!!!! .......Have to submit my final rewrite for the proposal this eve...... yeah......oh...& would someone please tell me why I did not take full advantage of young neighborhood slave labour sooner?? My yards look fantabulous!......Now if I can only find a pool guy.....

Help =)

~~HA!~~

Oh so true.....Here is my Horoscope for today.......LOL

(by Astrology.com)
If riding things out makes you feel too passive,
then this period of 'wait and see' is serving its purpose.
You are not totally in control of what is going on around you right now,
and the sooner you realize that, the better.
Take solace in the fact that just because you are not exercising your power
does not mean that you don't have power.
You will be able to use it later,
when you are in a position to be more effective with what you do.
The time is not right to act.

***OH...an update......so....he who sends evil emails ((( & states he is, incidently, NOT ANGRY....lol))), stated today
when I asked how we are getting the birds back to him ((& my other ex...read prev postings))......how about 6:30 this eve?
I told him Adam
the youngman down the street
is coming by to take care of the lawns...
but I will do my best to be there.
His retort?...
...oh..well, that worked out perfect for U.

:::blink blink:::

I explain
((lord knows why I try.....)),
"um....yeah...it was necessary
because no one would follow thru on statements
or, offers to help me.
Mr. Delusional....then says....
well, I offered, many times, but got yelled at so much that I just couldnt bring myself to do it.
OM f'in GODDESS!
ya know what fucker?...there is a HUGE difference between offering & following thru.....
mmmm?....perhaps the reason why our relationship fell apart
what kills me the most
during these conversations?
HE
HAS
NO
f'in
CLUE
he thinks his statements that he still loves me
are appropriate?!?!?!?
people...
if THAT is LOVE....he could...most def kill with kindness!!
....mmmmm....
IS THIS
where I can start
acting on my 'power' referred to in my horoscope??