~9288:YIP~... fresh floors~

~9288:YIP~... fresh floors~
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Mercury is retrograde....
In short?...
The planet MERCURY.. isn’t movin forward..

in fact?...he’s now moving backwards, and will continue doing so for the next few weeks.

Stuff in your life that will get f*cked with?
Communications.
Electronics.
Projects.
Contracts will have to be reworked.

If an ex starts to manifest themselves in your life (in thought word & deed….)

...don’t play into whatever it is that you may be thinking is a “better deal”…look at it as a way to get a better solution this time around. DO NOT START things...

FINISH SHIT on your list!!!!….
call those people you have put off…
arrange for whatever it is that needs to be fixed….
((but don’t expect it to be the fix you think it should be…lol))

most of all?
Be patient….
with your electronics…
your friends…
your family…
& most of all?...strangers =)

***gracias pixie **

~because Leesa said so.....~

~91708:YIP~...skullkeh~
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Start with your name: Minta

If your ex REALLY needed you at 3 am, would you go to his/her house? sure....its not good Karma to turn ones back...

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
its been quite a while..

What are the last three things you spent money on?
candles, groceries, bills for the house.

What was the last thing you cried about?
my PhD journey...

Could you go a day without eating?
sure..

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
Jon, Jeff, Julie, =)

Do you smoke weed regularly?
no

Drugs are bad?
illegal ones?....or prescription?...weed is fine...hard drugs not so much.

Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
yes.

When was the last time you were disappointed?
today....as much as i try to live "no expectations, no disappointments, no regrets"

Has a girl ever seriously punched you?
No.

What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
ice

Have you kissed two different people in one night?
yes

Is it easy for others to make you feel awkward?
no

In the past week have you felt stupid?
no

Have you ever been outside completely naked?
yes...often in the back yard...under the moon. =)

What would happen if you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
it'd be a cute one

Who did you text the most yesterday?
Chris Brown

What were you doing at 10pm Friday night?
friday nite is movie nite w/ stuart.

What are your plans for today?
foto's , clean house, movie w/ stuart, visit bank

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette?
yes

What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
kidney stones.

What is the last thing you yelled aloud?
Bella, stay inside the gate....at the puppy park last nite.

What do you think of when you think of Australia?
my cousins.

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?
Yes.

Have you ever kissed the last person you texted?
yes....as a greeting.

What's one action you do when you're really nervous?
wring my hands.

Would you rather give up the computer or the TV?
TV

Do you find yourself saying mean things to people over the internet that you wouldn't say to their face?
nope...i live my life being able to say it in person...or not at all.

One word that explains perfectly how you feel at the moment?
sad

What did the last text message you received say?
fantastic...i am so excited!!

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
lol...no

How hard is your life right now?
could be better....financially. but its not hard.

Have you ever taken anyone for granted?
yes

~y do i do this to myself.....y cant i walk away....~

~9198:YIP~ my sentiments exactly
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got the rejection /not really a rejection letter today from th OK Cherokee Nation re: my PPD in Native American Mothers.

the good / bad / worse news:

the worse...

~ the school term ended.....thus the imaginary previously talked about "deadline" has come and gone"

the bad news...

~ OK Cherokee Nation disallowed my study for approval...

the good news...

~ there are a few misunderstandings ( in their reading of it) .... they asked me to revise & resubmit.
~ my PhD school liason seemed to be able to registered me for the next term....

so...the ball is in my court...
i could accept the letter....( with the multiple listings of reasons why they rejected the study) & walk away...the whole journey ( 3 yrs, comps, 2 yrs writing proposal & getting rejected) is over....officially a PhD ABD (all but published...many many of us out there in the world)

or....

because school is under the understanding that OK is still in the process of deciding ....

i could....
feasibly revise & resubmit before the next term starts, therefore officially still be in a waiting status when the next term starts...

yeah...i know.....
i know that u know that i know i am not the kind to go down without a fight....
so ...
what are u doing this weekend?...wanna come over & help me rewrite this fuckin 120 page doc?

meh.......

~@ costco......

STU: i'll go thru first ....i have to renew our memberships...
ME: ok...i'll help load your purchases...
STU: thanx..
ME: ok...i think thats it.....'cept for your meat....& EW!~ u know i cant stand to touch that...
STU: u've never felt that way before....((in a whining voice & loud enough for all the other people standing around to hear))

ME: unable to control the laughter.......

yeah....nothing like going shopping with your platonic friend when everyone thinks we're a couple...

~9118:YIP~...we must never forget~

~9118:YIP~...we must never forget~
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It was 7:10 am, I was finishing my 12 hour nite shift. I was on the phone with our NY office, discussing the details of a batch job running on one of our servers. She put me on hold to verify some code info......and I was casually watching the big screen monitor mounted high on the wall a few cubicle isles over.

CNN was showing a plane flying into to first tower. I was still on hold. As I stood up to have someone across the way turn up the volume.......my cohort came back on the line. I'm not sure if I was all that calm when I told her I thought a plane just flew into her building. She said they heard a loud bang, but their supervisor was looking into it. She didnt believe me.

Why should she believe some programmer from AZ telling her a plane just flew into her building.

At that point, I think I told her the 2nd plane hit...f*ck what her boss was saying...everything was not okay...I was not making it up...I described the chaos we were witnessing on the tv...."use your sick time....vacation....just leave!" We hung up and I joined the crowd forming around the TV in silence.

I still wonder if she got out, or how her life changed forever on that day.

My shift ended.....the new crew was on their way into the building......some had been listening to the radio during their commute across the valley.......others were just learning.....some were crying.....others just stood in shock. One of my co-workers, who, on anyother day would be someone I would admire for his constant sunny disposition, walked by in tears trying to get thru to NY on his cell.

Today, if I were to hug him, as I did on 9-11, in the lobby of that fortune 500 org., we would both be advised on "inappropriate behavior in the workplace". How sad is that ?!?!

In the days that followed, when I wasnt glued to the set, crying, or wide awake having anxiety attacks into the night...........I made new friends at the grocery store, let people in line ahead of me-- no questions asked, hugged people with no hesitation, and vowed to be more in the moment.

How long did it take tho.....before people were back to: not acknowledging each other in line at the grocer, inching their cars forward because 'letting someone in' would delay them, re-establishing the unwritten rules of interaction in public, and operating on auto-pilot thru the day????

So.....what can I commit to....today?.....and each day after?

I can acknowledge "friends I haven't met yet".....allow people to cut in front of me in traffic, at the store,.....hug when I get the urge.......and be in the moment..................

What will you do?

~998:YIP:....running into your past~

~998:YIP:....running into your past~
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went looking for the pliers to rebend my bellybutton ring that i have somehow managed to make oval...

& in doing so...

ran smack dab into my past....
all my jewelry making stuff from yrs ago...

every now & then i pull it all out...
to make a special something or other for someone....

this time...
i think i need to make something for myself.... =)

i know the universe is fuckin w/ me again.....

so...yeah....i'll play...

who knows where it will take me....
& if there is one thing i have learned over the yrs...

is we are going to get there one way or another...
& i'm too old to fight the powers that be.....

see u on the other side of something i am being told to create =)

~988:YIP~....more than 1 bat in da house this holloween

~988:YIP~....more than 1 bat in da house this holloween
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starting to get all the halloween decorations down from their hiding places....

some on display year -round..
cause thats how i roll....

i LUV this time of yr...
the changing of the weather..
the leaves...
filling the house w/ comfort food smells as i cook squash, rice, yams, soups....

found out this am the hammies are really curious about that black berry i dropped in there.....
which just so happens to be the size of their heads....lol

but ...not eating off it.....
the raspberry either?....finicky little critters.....their organic fruits too!~

u'd think they would just dive right into them....oh well...still learning.

nothing else much going on around here school, work wise.
i think i am starting to get stir crazy......
i really cant go out every day & play ....
take pics..
shop..
drive around...
cause that costs money....
but i have to go do SOMETHING.....


zoe seems ok today....
her injection spot over the weekend was all swollen...
to the point that i put an ice pack on her...
& it must've felt pretty good..
cause the little squirmer laid right down & went to sleep...
all upside down in my arms....

she had been giving me the major stink eye...
& hiding under the covers...
i found the spot when i went to put them out to potty...
& she yelped when i picked her off the bed....
poor thing....

this am tho?...chasing & barking at the backyard visitors...
still a little swollen ...
but seems to be getting back to normal...
whatever her "normal" is =)

ok..
must go get some shit done...
& maybe take the poopers for a walk...
its cooling off in the am around here....

later bitches..

~mom?.... what cha doin down there ?

~mom?.... what cha doin down there ?
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this is the zoester...
peering down on her strange mom...
i am on the floor at the vets ...
.
took the little one in for her checkup
& to get her paperwork filled out.

she is going to start the pet therapy program
@ the hospital...

cross your fingers she gets thru the certification ..
please
& thank u =)

i think she'll be a gr8 little lover & caregiver...
how can patients & staff not want to luv on her?

so....i just ( 5 mins ago) recovered from a minor
meltdown..

after doing an upgrade to my zone alarm ( antivirus/spyware)
this am before trying to get some sleep....
& the puter whigged...

the mouse wasnt being recognized....
so of course i blamed it on the upgrade...
tried to do a back out/ restore to the last checkpoint....( all the while using the keyboard for the commands....tried that lately?...yeah...frustrating to say the least))

& shut up heather...i know my geek is showing ...

anywho.....after about 2 hours of rebooting/ trying this...trying that..
new batteries all around...
i went & pulled out the previous keyboard and mouse ...
hooked it up..

& oui la =)

my apologies to the dogs for my sailor talk this nice am....

anywho....going to get something to drink....& go back to bed for a nap....

later bitches....

~got tagged by Brico...... =)

~948:YIP: fall is arriving everywhere...
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A - Available/Single? Yes/ yes
B - Best Friend? stubeans
C- Cake or Pie? Banana-crème pie =)
E - Essential Item You Use Everyday? MoTo
F - Favorite Colour? Clear (hello fellow Buddhists)
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms? Gbears …so I can pose them in dirty ways….
H - Hometown? Menomonee falls
I - Indulgence? chocolate
J - January Or February? February – no real reason
K - Kids & Their Names? 5 … Chicken, Bella, KorKor, Zoe, Thelma & louise
L - Life Is Incomplete Without? Tibet
M - Marriage Date? May 28, ’88 & Jan 1, 91? I think…
N- Number Of Siblings? 2 –adopted (me …not them) brothers…
O - Oranges Or Apples? Either or….yummy =)
P - Phobias/Fears? Spiders crawling on me….i can look at them…..but just.dont.touch.me!~
Q - Favorite Quote? “its just information, do with it what you will”
R - Reason to Smile? nature
S - Season? Fall or Spring - Fall
T - Tag Three People? Tag yourself…not sure who even reads anymore…
U - Unknown Fact About Me? Not sure there is one…I’m pretty much an open book…
V - Vegetable you don’t like? Rutabegga (sp?)
W - Worst Habit? Staying up all nite
X - X-rays You’ve Had? Head, neck, back, teeth, wrist, kidneys, ankle, foot,
Y - Your Favorite Food? Indian =)
Z - Zodiac Sign? Sagittarius
** I don’t know what happened to D….

~cross u're fingers toes & anything else ....PLEASE!~

~8238:YIP~... phoning it in~
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Dear Ms. Minta,

We have considerable interest in the topic of PPD. I am enclosing CNIRB application, please follow these guidelines and submit your full proposal directly to me. Also note that from here on I will be your point of contact.

Thanks,

Sohail Khan,MBBS,MPH,CIP

Director of Health Research & Co-Chair CNIRB

Cherokee Nation Health Services,

918-453-5602(Office)

918-822-2309(Cell)

918-458-6174(Fax)

~its all an act....~

~8288:YIP~....just chillin
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i know its been a week...
seems that time line allows me to include all that i find interesting in my life these days...

still looking for employment...
still juggling cc's & unemployment checks...
all the lighting incense at the buddha came thru...
even tho i am "self-employed"...
they felt kind enough to still give me the 214.00 after taxes every week.....

yeah....not much but it does help for the little bills....
like cell phone...
h2O...
groceries....

i have filled out enough on-line applications to make anyone dizzy w/ the repetitiveness....

i am starting to have anxiety whenever i manage to fall asleep for any short period of time....
so ...
wham!~ PANIC....
& back up staring at the tv.....
til either i am so exhausted that i finally fall back asleep...
or if early enough, the sleeping aide helps....

i have not heard from any of my family....
yeah...
really concerned about their daughter, sister, sister-in-law huh?
what a bunch....

i think i am writing them off this xmas....
just dad...he still writes a letter now and then...
an update of sorts...

well...
since i slept till 3 this sunday afternoon....
& i have gone thru the bills & what is expected of me this week...
i think i will get dressed...
& go wander around wally world for some groceries....

maybe there'll be something worth foto-graphing at this ungodly hour for shopping.....2 am =)

toodles poodles.....if there's even anyone still out there....
mmmph..