~~~I say and U think~~~

HEY ...BELLA!.......

Momma's got her word game up again!

Do U think her BF's know how to play??
They know her answers are in the comments right??

I just might have to bite someone .......


Nude ::
Support ::
Rachel ::
Crane ::
Candy bar ::
Material ::
Mind games ::
Eviction ::
Produce ::
Joke ::

U put your answers in the comments right?!?!



Don't make me get off this couch!

~~A Fathers Love~~

~~amazing what a fresh coat of paint will do~~

Have U ever ....
scrubbed the floor....
& changed the water....
added more "majic"...
but...it ...just...doesn't look clean?
More important.....U've now got it in your head
that the germs
are NEVER going to go.....

My Solution?!?
FRESH COAT of terra cotta cement stain......
.....oh...the hall & piano room are sooooo pretty again.....
well... most of the piano room...
had to put the furniture somewhere....

Did U know....
cement can be very thirsty?
YES ....it can....
Well, mine was anyway.....
However.......since it decided to rain.....
I may have to wait
to jigsaw my way into painting the rest of the room
til the morning.......
& thats okay.....
I'll have some extra time before going into work.....

The pool guy is coming
to acid wash the pebble tek....
I drained it today....
& power-washed all the sludge off the walls, jacuzzi jet benches & stairs
I figure I save me some $$ that will go towards
the parts he will need to buy
to fix the saltwater system I have.....

mmmm......know what??
I just realized
I will need to use the neighbors bathroom .......
I painted my way backwards from the bedrooms
thru the piano room....
& into the kitchen........LOL

~~The Universe is being VERY generous!!~~

Out w/ the OLD...=(

In with the NEW =)

Stubeans....(yes...ladies....hes still available!...& so gonna kill me for sayin that ...LOL)....the evil landlord that he is....bought new appliances for his South Mountain house....and in the process accepted my offer to buy the stove which came out of that house for $200.00. WooT...wOoT!

I guess I no longer have any excuses for always ordering out...or getting foods from AJ's (delicious already prepared gourmet foods)

U know...I haven't checked in with the universe today....I really must go and thank her....she's been very generous lately with my life =)

Have U counted your blessings today??

~~Silent Sunday StatementS~~

Ok
I am ready to talk…..
But it’s Sunday!
So….
Instead I will blog.
For any of my new readers….
Silent Sundays are my way of forcing myself
to stay inside my own thoughts…..
no TV….no phone calls…..no neighborly chats at the door.

I have so much going on ….
So much to share…
Don’t even know where to start….
Actually haven’t written because of that……lol

So…lets see ..where to start….
The new job?.....going well.
Busier than a one-armed paper hanger.
Great team….immense diversity….just the way I like it!
VERY knowledgeable people…..I feel like I am still playing catch-up.

Emotionally as of late I’ve been in a strange place….
Still can not define it ….so I will not try…..
Most def in a place of change….
not willing to deal with behaviors I would’ve previously.
& not in an angry way……just matter of fact…..
Learning tho that when these thoughts are communicated
…the are NOT received with the same level of openness.

Makes me wonder….what is it about the truth that makes them
..run…never to call again…..such big talkers…..yet…
…when it comes down to it….inexperience, wonderment & shock prevail??
I have had a few conversations over the last couple weeks….
Heart to hearts …..asking the same questions….
….yes from qualified individuals….((er…have a penis))

The answers were rather interesting:
No guy really wants to hear that….
It’s the game…..the challenge….
U scare them….but they are intrigued enough to play……
w/out bringing their game….
& realize too late they are out of their league.
U communicate too well…..the male of the species doesn’t.
Um….yeah…..U have a gun!
Some guys might want to….but fear performance anxiety….
U can be rather sexually demanding ….LOL
Guys just are not used to women who play the game as well.
U are a different one…….((whatever that means?!? LOL))

What I gathered from all the honest feedback ….was that I need to find
An intellectual sexual freak who doesn’t mind that I sleep with a 9mm…
Anyone?? LOL

Ok.. enough about that …….I am still trying to find a new TV
I’ve waited til superbowl time …..
Research shows it’s the best time for sales on high end TV’s.
I AM SOOOO CONFUSED!! I know I want LCD HDTV with HDMI.
But ….what brands are better than others??
Any input would be appreciated =)
I just know no matter what I buy……as soon as I walk out the door….
…the upgraded model will be on the shelf….and less expensive!! LOL

oh....& in case U are reading......U know who U are...
(when I asked what U thought this eve.....I really did mean it....)
I am still waiting for that synopsis.....bon noite mi nueva especial amiga =)

Alright…..its after 10 pm……..I really should get the rest of my work done.
And prepare for work tomarrow……ciao bellas…..

~~Silent Sunday StatementS~~

RES $'s....Booo-yah!...thank U gamblers of MN....must pay bills.....must pay bills....do not go shopping.....do not go shopping.......OM....shanti...OM...

Nothing like a warm cuddly blanket right from the dryer....mmmmm =)...now if the pups would just share with momma .....??

Scrubs......such lovely sarcasm!... from Dr's...mmm?.....why would I like that!?!? HA!

I never play the lottery....but for some reason after dropping all that cash at the gourmet store on Sat I felt the need to buy some scratchers.....lets see...spent $20.00...won $95.00....mmm?...not a bad exchange =)

Changing the headlights on my jeep =) is a no brainer....or I have mad bisexual car skillz....WORD~

Watching pretty people in sappy movies fall in love does not help being single.....I'm...just sayin.....

Getting hair colored & washing that age right out of my hair is on the schedule this week....YIKES...where did those angry grey hairs come from?!

POM peach tea ROCKS!...now I just have to find a place other than the gourmet food store to buy it at.......anyone?

The pups watched the Grinch today...& it seemed to reaffirm just... how.... good their little lives are.

Watching Margaret Cho talk about her breakdown today gave me comfort somehow...!?!?...well..that & her imitation of her mom just cracks my ass up!!....U know.....the ha--assss....mahhstah dvd discussion.....tears roll I laugh sooo hard....

Silent Sundays R gr8 4 playing the piano for hrs!!!...but...it is really hard to say thanx to the neighbors when they come over to comment.

~~~DAILY OM~~~

My daily OM today talked about
change....
for some reason
as of late
I have been contemplating my lifes changes
over the yrs
conversations have come up
with various people
this last week
how long I have
been in the valley
owned this house
worked where I do
since my divorce
blah blah blah blah......
yadayadayada
I thought it was all due to the holly-daze....
evidently not ......

my daily OM refers to this phenomenon as....
a "newly-developed awareness"...
& instructs me to:

"consider how different your responses to frustration, joy, excitement, and anger are now compared to your general attitude a relatively short while ago."

so...I guess
my general "I do not give a shit"....
attitude as of late has a purpose......LOL
evidently I am to honor this marked gap between my old & new selves
hold a ceremony......

do U think spending 202.00 at the gourmet food store yesterday qualifies as one of those ceremonies??

well....I did buy an awesome bottle of sparking wine......
to pop after signing my 'new job' papers monday
well...maybe I will wait til after my trip to 'pee in the cup please'......

~~~OK...Did U Hear the One About?~~~

....the guy who dreams hes eating a giant marshmallow....
& wakes up
chomping on his pillow....?
I had a dream
this morning
during one of my many catnaps I take
breaks from writing
sleep too long
& I lose motivation
anyway.......

back to my dream
I was back in Wisconsin
it was snowing....
yeah
U know where this is going
after a few pounces
on my head....
.........boobs
..............stomach

I slowly begin to realize...
I am NOT in WI....
................It is NOT snowing

RATHER

those are feathers.....

YUP

LOTS & LOTS of little feathers.....
being released from their pillow prison
by 2 CracK-Smokin' puppies.

FeatherS flying thru the air
.......PuppieS flyin thru the feathers
........................Complete & Utter JoY

Puppies LivinG in the MomenT
A LessoN
on Silent SundaY
4 ME.....


Almost....didnt have the heart to stop their JoY

But
After I ate....
.........& inhaled
a few feathers

I DiD

YeaH.....If U have ever wondered.....
what it would be like
when two puppies
get a hold of a feather pillow
& proceed to
.....TeaR IT
..........ShAkE IT
................EmPtY IT....

ALL OVER THE ROOM!...
ALL OVER MOMMA!
ALL OVER THE COUCH!?

TakE it from ME.....
It is NOT prettY
CutE.....LOL
but NOT PrettY

OK.....

SHHHHHHH!!!!
It is Silent Sunday AgaiN!

mmmmm....?
Did I break Silence....?

DoeS InSaNe LaughteR CounT?
B?.....
did the MonKs Laugh?

~~~Silent Sunday Progress~~~

Interesting....to be inside your head.....
intentionally...
all day ....

& no speaking.....
.................dogs are wondering why no usual exuberant play talk & encouragement?

ignoring text mssgs.....
ignoring phone calls
might have to turn the house ringer off....
distracting
takes me away from my thoughts
I am writing
but
not interacting.........
the dissertation will not get done otherwise
=)
I am enjoying it

~~My Dharma group was blessed w/a private 3 day teaching from HHDL ~~

~~~ SuNdAy ObSeRVaTiOnS ~~~

• President Clinton ??...left me a voice mail on my home number?
• I love the new 'Dinosaur Ritz' in Tomatoe Soup
• Zoe is on CRACK since her period!
• I am way too obsessive about my recycled stuff....( It does not have to be folded & organized)
• I now have one of the bedrooms designated as the clean laundry b4 folding area......YIKES
• I need a pool guy.....(preferably one 1/2 nekkid & hawt that I can gawk at as he does his thing)
• I am thinking of starting a 'silent Sunday' practice....will be interesting if the doorbell rings !?!
• I have to rent 'The Departed' when it comes to DVD....to fully understand it.....saw it last nite!!
• I have a to-do list of three million......well ....not 3 million....things & can not decide what to do 1st.