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~2nd & 3rd runner up isnt all that bad....~

it was prolly this ^ pic that cost her the crown.......

yeah.....
its hard to take yourself seriously....
when your BBF's from HI sends these.....
god....I miss her them..... =)

~~TMI TUESDAY~~

1. Would you stay in a relationship with an physically unfaithful partner? nope
2. Would you stay in a relationship with an emotionally unfaithful partner? nope
3. On a scale of 1-10, how important is the recognition of birthdays to you (your's, a friend's, a partner's)? 10
4. When you have a "toe-curling" orgasm, do your does curl up, or down? depends on the position....missionary..toes up.....doggie...toes grippin for stability =)
5. Every one has a pet peeve, tell me one of yours.....bad grammar..bad listener....& messiness...

~u think u know a person.....~

...& then...
u find a picture u took while on a trip together to europe.....

on his new dating profile.....

**crickets chirping***

it also happens to be in the same set of pictures of the one u FRAMED w/ luv for him....
for xmas....

as a remembrance of your romantic nite walkin along the canals.

u tell yourself to *breath*....
tell yourself... "hey .....he had a camera that nite too....."
its prolly NOT THE SAME PIC...

so...
u go out to your flickr acct......
pull up the foto...
& compare them side by side.....

~FUCK~

yup.....its your pic.....
on his dating profile......
being used to lure the next victim......

his profile states:

"I am intelligent, philosophical, easy-going, well educated, but very down to earth. I have worked hard to be very successful in my career. I have traveled to Asia, Europe, all over the USA, and many places in between for business and pleasure."

um...yeah.....
he forgot to add that he works so hard ...

that in fact...

in his cold-hearted successfulness...he may ignore his new luv for days......

& not understand what the big deal is.....

when she explains she needs more.....

& last.....

he will send this communication in an email back when asked to remove the foto:

"Seems like it would be a kind gesture to let me use it, considering I paid for your whole trip. Or did you forget about that?"

.....yeah......feel the luv?....poor thing...
he's forgotten the monies I shelled out ((i may have been unemployed-yes but i also wanted to contribute))...
& he seems really heartbroken that we broke up....huh.

~WOW~

~damn that silly retrograded mercury....~

well....i have quite the decision to make...
after i call the accountant of course....
i know things happen ( or don't happen) for a reason....
& its time i put that to the test....
amex gave me a plat bus card for ~mintas.fotos~...
i've been told i have an eye...
i've done my research....
gr8 book btw if anyone ever wanted to know how to market their foto's.....
its called the 2008 photographers market where & how to sell your photographs....
it lists over 1400 listings for mags, books, publishers, stock agencies & more...
i need to ask my accountant the +'s / _'s to either LLC ...
or should i go w/ a sole proprietorship...
need to find out re getting an EIN....or just use the SS....
need to go the the bank & get a line of equity.....
shouldn't be too hard.....
my house lists for 220.00, even in the downturn of the market.....
& I only owe 70K....
not that i am planning on blowing thru the funds avail.....
but it would be nice to pay off the credit cards....have money for bills....
while i continue to find the 'right job'.....
get the foto bus off the ground..
& finish the PhD.......
last but of course......
not least....
i will have the fun job of finally buying that Nikon D300 that makes me swoon just imagining my hands wrapped around her & pushing her buttons.... =)

~& now for something completely different...~

i thought it was time for a little communication around here....
Buddha-nose (lord knows for you non-Buddha heads)...
it hasn't been all the rainbows & kittens lately.....
& to be honest......
i am trying to will myself into happiness....
BE THE HAPPY....i think it goes...

in preparation for my call w/ my committee chair in the am....
she so accommodatingly sent her feedback from last week...

ever feel sooo defeated u just want to cry?...
yeah....done....

pityparty over.....
wanna know something else?.....

the person who i thought understood my journey......
& what a f'in nitemare this all is....
who i thought would be there when i am done...
& who i looked forward to spending time w/.......
has basically thrown in the towel....
yeah......

i have held off from blogging about it......
& not because i haven't wanted to scream FUCK U from the nearest mountain top.....
but because i personally think its cheating.....
U know....
reading someones blog to find out what is going on in their life .....
instead of picking up the fucking phone to check on them.....
yeah...i guess i will be the man here....

bravo....

u forced my hand.....

feel better?......

it's easier...huh?....

so u can say....."she broke it off w/ me"

what a chickenshit.....

so....we're done......time to get my key back......
get my stuff from your house....
return your stuff.....
& move on........

but....guess what....

since you got the job....

& the beautiful new car....

guess who will be doing the driving across town?....LOL

yeah...not me....

un-fuckin-believable ......
its been 11 days since we have spoken....
9 days since a text that told me to "get some rest" after I expressed my frustration re my Dissertation....how tired I was....how depressed i am re not working.....
& basically put it out there.....that it would be nice if u wanted to come over .....but I really needed to be at home writing .....
last time this happened......
last time the blame was placed on me.....
how it was my responsibility to call...
it was me who was to patch the fragile ego.....
u know....
cause that's what good little girls do...

fuck that...
i should've known.....
i tried to warn u.....
rebound girl was not what i wanted to be....

but here it is.....

your anger towards her sometimes is the pink elephant in the room....
your need to check her emails......to show up at her new mans court dates....your pre-occupation w/ the whole ass-fuckin you got from the divorce judge...

Its all understandable.....
really....
but ....it shouldn't be such a strong influence on our relationship.......

so...

because i know u check my blog....

consider this my communication.....

is this what u wanted?....

i guess it is....since i have nothing else to go by......

i think i told u last time......

never again...

fuck me over once....shame on u...

fuck me over twice?....shame on me.....

i deserve better.....

we almost made it a year.....i enjoyed our time....especially the trip.....thank you....

hopefully your new Bimmer arrived safe & sound?....

let me know ....

when you would like to exchange our stuff....

prolly after the superbowl....

since your friends are coming into town.....

back to my writing....my future.....my babies.....my photography....my PhD......& the few friends who still understand & believe in me.....

~~I say & U think~~

it has been a while since i have played this psychological game....
care to join me?.....
my answers are in the comments.....
no peeking....

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~~It's ready....time to support the arts!~~

Well....I finalized the new imagekind site .....

where U can now buy a ~mintas.fotos~ creation =)

Here is the link: http://mintas-fotos.imagekind.com/~mintas.fotos~

unfortunately....~mintas.fotos~ LLC & copyright papers are still in the works....
so the selection is limited to one gallery......
hopefully w/ in the week?...
I will have the ability to expense the next membership level .....
& will add new categories as well as more foto's........

Please click on over .......
I would love to share my pics =)

~~TMI TUESDAY~~

1) Do you have/ever had any dating or sex superstitions? (Wear 'lucky jeans' on first date, always light a vanilla candle, etc.) If so, what are they?
not that i can think of......sorry....kinda boring answer ...huh?

2) If you were stranded on the old deserted island, and a genie appeared who could only grant you one wish -- to bring one of the following people to join you, who would it be?

- your spouse/significant other
- an unrequited love or some person you've had a crush on
- an old/past love
X- your best friend

3) Tell us "weather or not" you're in the mood -- how does rain, snow, sleet, scorching heat, sweltering humidity etc. affect your libido.
anyone who has been reading this blog for any length of time....knows what rain does for me.....its the most motivating of all weather conditions.....snow?..in the mountains ...w/ a fire?...same =) ....all types of heat....if not accompanied by pool activities?....can go suck an egg !

4) Are you a crying drunk, an angry drunk, a 'I'm drunk, let's screw' sort of a drinker? (And, if you do not drink -- which one of those things is the reason?)
i dont drink to the level which would cause my behaviour to be exaggerated.....however....i USED to be a goofy drunk who's libido was out of control..... =)

5) Who turns you on the most & why: wow....gr8 question.....lets see:
* the activist -->moderate level....prolly due to the amt of passion involved....

* the author --> high level....words can move mountains....& very rarely do you find someone who can =)

* the care-giver/healer (nurse, doctor, masseuse, herbalist, chiropractor etc.) --> medium level...usually one would think high level here...but if their personality is smarmy.....no matter what their talent is regarding physical comfort....my brain will override....eventually... =)

* the comedian -->low level... comedy has its place....if someone is 'always on'...& unable to be real when its needed....no intimacy will develop...

* the educator (professor, teacher, mentor etc.) --> high level...mmmm brains =) enough said....

* the model -->low level....havent really met any uber smart ones.... =) fun to play w/ but thats it.

* the musician -->um...yeah...extreme level.....u know they can play the body ....like they love their instrument..... =)

* the politician ......no level of turm on whatsoever!

* the scientist --> medium level....geeks are hawt in their own little way.....