~~HuH?...WhaT WaS ThaT ScreaM?~~

Did U HeaR ThaT??
It Twas I!!!........
Rejoicing in the feedback from my committee chair!!!
here......read it 4 u'r-selves!!!


Great, DrM2B!!! I love the new focus and how you have opened it! It is so much clearer than what you had worked on before and it really is evident that you are researching an important issue. Attached is my feedback and suggestions. You have made great progress!! Dr. XXXX

OK......did U notice the double exclamation points?!
YUP.....
PROGRESS
GR8 PROGRESS!!
YES....
tears welled.....
Its been a LoOoOoOong time comin.....
oK....off to finish and submit CH2 & 3 =)

~~~TMI TUESDAY~~~

Yeah....yeah.....I know.......the 5 of U that actually read this shite......missed hearing re DrM2B's Frah--EEEK-iness....

4 anyone new to TMI TueS?.....Go HERE....CuT, PastE, & get ReaL....

1. My biggest sexual turn on is __________?
Living in the moment & being ReaL

2. On a scale of 1-10, how jealous do you get (have you gotten)?
That emotion is not worth my time......my theory is this.....if someone outside my relationship(s) is being shown or receiving attention previously shared with me....then so be it. Perhaps there is something this new person can teach me. Many times, these side journeys in relationships allow growth.
3. Have you ever had sex with someone you work(ed) with? Any negative

consequences?
Yes I have....no there were not.

4. Wash up, cuddle or fall asleep?
PEE!....wash....cuddle, fall asleep....do it all over again =)

5. Which is more important of the two in "chemisty," physical attractiveness or sexual performance?
When I was younger....I was all about the physical.....now......(two yrs later ....... HA!) I know its all about the performance.

**Bonus (as in optional): What kind of birth control do you use?
well.....seeing that I received my 'revirgination' card in the mail a while back.....BC isnt necessary when U ain't gettin any!!

~~~I say and U think~~~

Rhyme :: or reason
Substantial :: good enough
Instant :: gratification
Greed :: ugly
Brad :: Pitt
Season :: 's of Love....RENT
Accomplished :: Goals
Invite :: formal
Sparkle :: eyes
Rainbow :: Pflag

Wanna Play?......GO HERE

~~~HEY!~~~

Can someome PLEEEEZE bring me some of these ?????

I'll just be here.....dying on the couch........ring the bell......

~~~UpdatE~~~

OoOoOoOoOoOoOoOh...........MY................HeaD!
How is it possible that I have taken liquid tylenol sore throat stuff....
slept it seems every 10 minutes off & on.....
drank gal H2O,
Juice
Mt Dew,
eaten enough popsicles to throw a child into a summer thrill
ChiX SouP
Slept More
YET>>>>>>>>>
I am Still Miserable?!?!?!?
&
NO
I have not sent my final version of the proposal off
so of course
that is in theback of my aching head
the whole time I lay on the couch
I just want to cry
but I know my head will hurt more afterwards
so I don't
How's that for fuckin control freak behavior
LOL
U know what I really want?
I want to be able to call
Snuggle for hire
Does that exist?
U know
some big strong comfy guys arms
for me to snuggle into
like when you were little
just til I fall asleep
is it tooo much to ask?
what a gold mine of a company......

~~~PricE - LesS~~~

Writing hours lost blowing a tire on the way home Tues nite...waiting for tow...& getting home? 6

Cost for dressing baby in new sneaks (( 5 4x4 tires...))??? 587.00 !!!

Days lost to Flu after p/u Jeep & pd for tires??? 2

Having THE BEST cook & friend in my neighbor.....who despite differences in basic religious beliefs & practices.....brought over:
mashed potatoes/Yams w/marshmellow/cranberry Sauce/Stuffing/Macaroni&Cheese/Turkey/Gravy/Creme Brulee Cheesecake & of course Pumpkin Pie

PRICELESS!!

Back 2 Bed 4 M =(

~~~One WorD~~~

~Type 1 word ~
~No explanations ~
Yourself: Burnt
Partner: um?...
Hair: Long
Mother: Enigma
Father: PoweR
Favorite Item: Undefined
Dream last night: Didnt
Favorite Drink: Dew
Dream Car: Dependable
Dream Home: Paid
Room In: Kitchen/Office
Ex: Many
Fear: Hate
Where wish to be in Ten Years? Tibet
Who you hung out with last night: Babies
What You're Not: Motherly
Muffins: Banana
One Wish List Items: HDTV
Time: Fleeting
Last Thing Done: Drove
Wearing: Berkeley
Favorite weather: Crisp
Favorite Book: Psych
Last thing eaten: Pizza
Life: Stressed
Mood: Inward
Best Friends: Emerson
Currently thinking: Proposal
Car: Antique
Summer: SIZZLE
Relationship status: Single
What is on the Tele: Candle
What is the weather like: Beautiful
Last time laughed: NOW

Previously LOVED over HERE..... =)

~~The MEME that Kat stole from Leesa~~

1.The phone rings. Who do you want it to be? HHDL….would I be able to speak...ah…NO
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?Yes
3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?Observer at first…then I start to mess with people.
4. Do you take compliments well? yes
5. Are you an active person? Does typing count?
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, do you survive? Can I order room service?
7. Do you like to ride horses? Yes
8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid? Yes….every summer 1 mo…& was a counselor….LUVED it.
9. What was your favorite game as a kid? Playing 500 rummy w/ Grandma Uecker.
10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married would you? Would I what?....reciprocate?....nope
11. Are you judgmental? Try not to be….but lets be honest…I’m human
12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you? Sure …as long as they will dance nekkid w/ me on full moons =)
13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued? Pursued.
14. Use three words to describe yourself: Curious….driven….sleep deprived
15. If you had to choose, would you rather be deaf or blind? Deaf.
16. Are you continuing your education? Yes…always
17. Do you know how to shoot a gun? Yes.
18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you tried to save? My animals., the safe, pictures
19. How often do you read books? Daily
20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?Present
21. What is your favorite children's book?Lord of the rings
22. Have you kissed any of your Blog friends? Um……yes?
23. How tall are you? 5'8.5
24. Where is your ideal house located? Coastal….Washington?
25. Boxers, briefs, thongs, panties, or grannies? Thongs
26. Last person you talked to? Jeanne
27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth? Yes
28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?Hmm... sometime last yr
29. What are your keys on your key chain for? House, Vehicle, Motorcycle, handcuffs, gun lock
30. Where was the furthest place you traveled today? Family RM to back bedroom bath.
31. Where is your current pain at? Head….sinus I think
32. Do you like mustard? Y..Spicy…..
33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat? I would love to sleep.
34. Do you look like your mom or dad? Supposedly Spitting image of biological mom…….(I am adopted)
35. How long does it take you in the shower? Am I alone …..;)
36. Can you do a split? Yes….
37. What movie do you want to see right now? Running with Scissors
38. Do you put lotion on your dog or cats? Yes….pups little pads get dry here in AZ
39. What did you do for New Year's? Don’t remember
40. Do you think "The Grudge" was scary? No
41. What was the cause of your last accident? Vague question….so….Car -> rear-ended…..relationship?...dishonesty….
42. How much money do you have on you right now? 189.00
43. What are you drinking? Orange Mt Dew
44. Was your mom a cheerleader? LOL I have NO idea
45. What's the last letter of your middle name? E
46. Who did you vote for on American Idol? Didn't watch it.
47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night? Lately? about 2-4
48. What do you buy at the movies? Popcorn, soda…tickets.
49. Do you know how to play poker? NO
50. Do you wear your seat belt?Sometimes
51. What do you wear to sleep? PJ bottoms, wifebeater
52. Anything big ever happen in your hometown? Nope
53. How many meals do you eat a day? I graze
54. Is your tongue pierced? Was
55. Do you trust the news reported by the local paper? No
56. What's you favorite NFL team? Who?...what sport is that ?
57. Do you like funny or serious people better? Serious people with dry humor
58. Ever been to Vegas? Many times
59. Did you eat a cookie today? No.
60. Do you use cuss words in other languages? Yes….all the time.
61. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads? I pay.
62. Do you hate chocolate? IS that possible?
63. Is anyone mad at or irritated with you right now? Not sure
64. What's your favorite preparation for eggs? Scrambled, onions, green peppers, cheese
65. If you could have any job (assuming you have the skills) what would it be? Continuity person in films…..I guess because it chaps my ass when they fail in movies I watch
66. Are you easy to get along with? Probably not. LOL
67. What is your favorite time of day? Middle of nite
68. Who do you hate? I don't hate.
69. Would you ever date your first love again? Don’t remember first love
70. Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend? no
71. Current mood? Slightly past exhaustion…..

~~~HoW Am I SupposE 2 WritE~~~

Sorry BLU.....CouldnT ResisT ~~~~

~~~HoW 2 GeT YouR FemalE 2 WatcH FootBaLL~~~

WHO: 2 LUVs (friends of mine)
WHAT: Conversation
WHERE: LivingRoom
WHY: Watching the MI vs. ? FootBall Game
WHEN: Saturday Afternoon........
HE: Well....ITs half-time....
Go get your TOY....
SHE: Okay...well...never gonna turn THAT down.....

~~On Way 2 Bedroom...~~
SHE: Honey?...how long does 1/2 time last?
HE: 1/2 an hour babe......now get too it....NEKKID!

~~~Basking in Afterglow on the Couch....~~~
SHE: HOney?
HE:Yeah?
I'll Watch FootBall W/ U......ANnNnNy time!!

Nothin' says foreplay like...."honey....get U're toy...its 1/2 time!....HuH!

~~~I say and U think~~~

I am TIRED...
& not just 'need a nap' tired...
but more like - I want to crawl under covers for a few days - tired.
I filled out my paperwork for last nite
NO Bad Guys caught....anymore info
well.....
U know.....
I'd have to Kill ya
I have YET to finish CH's 2 & 3.....
Few DOCS for work......
Laundry

I say ... and you think ... ?
Teacher :: a schoolgirl fantasy...
Fifty :: cent piece
Crossword :: puzzle
Stuffed :: shells
Family :: Tree
Purr :: content
Toad :: stools
Cocktail :: stirrers
Insecurity :: Imagination
Magical :: moments....

Time for SOUP......

~~~Still here....Marinating~~~

I have many many posts marinating
rumbling
sorting themselves out
but first
I have CH's 2 & 3 to finish & submit
ya know?
.....writers block is such a bitch
I also have an 'assignment' this eve.....
Wish my partner J & I luck....
in the meantime........

I wouldn't want to leave you visually deficient today.........
so heres some pics of J & her daughter --A
J & her squeeze in Mexico.....


boating, scuba-ing, & enjoying the sea!
okay...talk amongst yourselves........

~~~~~RequsteD~~~~~~

~~~HuH?...Wha?~~~

Remember the water heater that was replaced & put to rest at the curb for bulk trash p/u last week?....
walking out to the car this am......
corner of my eye
mmmm?....."I don't remember hearing them come by with their noisy backhoe"......
who the hell would want my water heater?
what is inside that thing of value??
Riddle me that BATgirl!

~~~QuiD PrO QuO....QuiD PrO QuO~~~

~~~Opinions Please~~~

SO...today, after I wrote an explanation regarding why I CHOOSE to not celebrate Thanksgiving (see below):

er.....about that holiday?.....yeah.....remember me?...Native American?.....I dont celebrate when they came over to rape, spread diseases, and pillage our villages......

The response I got from someone I WAS getting to know.......

anyway.. you don't have to be for a holiday to celebrate it?? i'm not christian and i celebrat christmas.. i like any holiday you can eat a lot and get drunk..lol..

i work with a full blood Hopi, she love thanksgiving! and christmas! so give up the grudge, the war is over!.. lol...

Basically I feel like he told me:

Forget I am Native
Get over myself & any honor of my heritage that I stand for......
& just get drunk & fat.

UM .....yeahhhhhh.........I think I am done talkin with this one.....

YOUR THOUGHTS!?!?

~~~UPDATE~~~
Here is brainiacs response.....

haha.. you are too funny..

i guess i see us all as ancestors... their is only one animal, homosapien.. whether your recent relative are from southwest north america or australia, we all are the same..

so chill the hell out and enjoy the festivities... lol

OK.....Chuckles lets look at this:
1st.....I think U meant --> "Their" to be 'THERE"
2nd.....homosapien is TWO WORDS! Homo sapien
3rd.....my ancestors are from Canada...& my reservation is in Northern MN. They settled there after migrating down from Canada...thanx for checking on that.......
4th.....um ....I think its clear ....I was not trying to be funny.
Last......NOTHING chaps my hiney more than when someone tells me to 'chill'.

~~~Quote of the Day~~~

I wish U were my sister.....
Because then I could kick U in the ASS!
DrM2B's co-worker said to her .......
walking back from his desk
after she realized she DID, in fact, have that email!!
Cant U just feel the LUV!?!?.......

~~~HA ....HA~~~~

Found this over at the PIXIEs...... =) I usually don't give them much credit....
For those of U
who think.....
they 'know' me....
Think it is accurate??.....

You are The High Priestess
Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.
The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.
What Tarot Card are You?Take the Test to Find Out.

~~~KorKor's Traumatic Cesar Moments~~~

Stubeans came over to move my backyard sculpture water heater...... to the curb for bulk trash p/u.......

& he mentioned (as he does...every chance available...)
that today's episode of

The Dog Whisperererererer

reminded him that the only way to get KorKor
(who is PETRIFIED of anyone but Momma......)

to come to him, allow him to touch her......
& stop barking at anyone & everyone who comes over .....
was to have me hand her to him on a leash.

Well....U can imagine my aprehen...aphrehen.......discomfort with the thought of her getting off the leash & running into .....oh ...I cant even type it......
But...I knew it had to be done.. Took her outside...
handed the leash to Stu....
& watched KorKor go absolutely
APESHIT!
As I watched him walk her up & down the street
I felt... what I can only imagine
a mother feels
at her little ones
first day of kindergarten!
LOL
I felt
TERRIBLE!
the fear...
her eyes soooo big....
even after walking twice
up & down
& getting better with each passing (ok.....maybe.....not so much....in this picture...)
afterwards
the look on her face...
standing in the house
was the same as when she arrived on the plane
just over a yr ago.....
she looked like her little world was
upsidedown.......
Her solution?
Take a nap...
Checking first....
to be sure

'HE' was gone!!

~~~Silent Sunday Progress~~~

Interesting....to be inside your head.....
intentionally...
all day ....

& no speaking.....
.................dogs are wondering why no usual exuberant play talk & encouragement?

ignoring text mssgs.....
ignoring phone calls
might have to turn the house ringer off....
distracting
takes me away from my thoughts
I am writing
but
not interacting.........
the dissertation will not get done otherwise
=)
I am enjoying it

~~My Dharma group was blessed w/a private 3 day teaching from HHDL ~~

~~~I say and U think~~~

~~ Someone just try to convince me that my furkids can't smile!........Just look at the Zoester!~~

We had fun on our assignment.....worked this one with another PI girlfriend of mine.....we still can not believe we are actually doing legitimate federal assignments ...4 yrs ago we started talking about getting into this line of work.... & between life commitments, change in jobs for both of us... her raising two daughters on her own..... & other things life throws ....it has taken this long for us to get here. Eventually, we want to start out own business.....doing surveillance work.

Nick :: Nolte
Focus :: PEOPLE!...FOCUS!
Police :: force
Miles :: Davis
Earn :: a living
Twice :: bitten
Razor :: 's edge
Personality :: traits
Dumped :: abandoned
Reliable :: emerson friends

~~~ReSpEcT mY aUtHoRit----IE!!~~~

Off to clean my weapon......get into gear.... & go catch BAD_GUYS!

........bad boys ...badboys....what cha gonna do?!?!....what cha gonna do when they come for U ?!?!?

~~WISH ME LUCK!~~~~

~~~Midnight Musings Refusing to Sleep~~~

• get the pups caught up on shots/vet checks
• poopies in backyard! =(
• fix front yard hose hookythingy leak
• call mum/dad - catch up on life
• finish online xmas shopping
• vacuum out Laundry area..under...around....between!
• Find out where my new kingsize pillows are ...
• Find out where my new knifeset is....
• Clean Birdroom ......and set up new radio so Bubba can not get to cord again! (nah....they aren't spoiled .....)
• repaint floors
• figure out how to clean my weapon....it jammed the other day at the club....because I used cheap ammo
• store the 1,000 rounds of 'better' ammo I bought (yeah...mom would be so proud!....LOL)
• empty out both bathroom vanities...toss old medicines & such.
• go thru towels... put older ones on rag shelf.....
• put new soft fluffy towel sets in bathrooms & linen closet
• snake the dryer vent & the lint trap....read recently can be a fire hazard & decrease the dryers effectiveness over the years.
• go thru office....shred older than 10 yrs financial docs....toss boxes for stuff out of warranty....
• organize photos for scanning into photoblog
• vacuum bedrooms, baths,hall, living, kitchen
• Vacuum TV room, laundry, & office
• Fax PI stuff
• frame pics for baby grand display....
• Mail 'gifts' to Pixie & Brico =)
• finish organizing Yoga/meditation room....set up tv/ vcr for tapes....Buddha alter for meditation.
• Post schedule for playing piano at least 3xwk....meditation time.....
• send out Silent Sunday communications to friends/ family (so they are prepared....& I dont have to break code first day by explaining it ...LOL)
• Finish CH2 & 3 of Dissertation proposal
• Prepare for Friday nites Federal Anti-piracy PI assignment =)
• Do a complete back up of Laptop HD to external Drive
• Put out large items for quarterly garbage pickup
• Powerwash driveway
• Rock for bare spots in backyard around pool
• Contract Pool maintenance service
• Learn how to use my lawn mower...LOL (sad, but true) Maybe I'll pay some neighborhood kid ??
• Resume early morning walks with the pups.....get L (neighbor) to join....
• Realize tomorrow is another day.....stuff can wait !! Go to bed!
• G' nite =)

***Edit.....Additions & strike thru things off my list =) .......

Edits ....Fri, Sat

Edits - TH 11/16

~~~Where is Cesaaaaar..when I NEED him!~~~

Okay!.... it is officially the HI-my-name-is-ZOE-& I-am-crazy-because-I've-been-smokin-crack-&-now-I-am-losing-my-fuckin-puppy-brain-&-driving-my-mom-&sisters-NUTS-hour!

It happens at the same time EVERY NITE! I LUV her to death but I'm wondering if its growing pains, or hormonal?.......Anyone else have a just over a yr old, just had her first heat puppy that acts the same way?!?!?

~~~ SuNdAy ObSeRVaTiOnS ~~~

• President Clinton ??...left me a voice mail on my home number?
• I love the new 'Dinosaur Ritz' in Tomatoe Soup
• Zoe is on CRACK since her period!
• I am way too obsessive about my recycled stuff....( It does not have to be folded & organized)
• I now have one of the bedrooms designated as the clean laundry b4 folding area......YIKES
• I need a pool guy.....(preferably one 1/2 nekkid & hawt that I can gawk at as he does his thing)
• I am thinking of starting a 'silent Sunday' practice....will be interesting if the doorbell rings !?!
• I have to rent 'The Departed' when it comes to DVD....to fully understand it.....saw it last nite!!
• I have a to-do list of three million......well ....not 3 million....things & can not decide what to do 1st.

~~~I say and U think~~~

Theft :: Detection
Storage :: BIN
Pick :: Lock
Los Angeles :: Disney!
The one :: PIXIE...(so I have been told)
Accent :: HAWT
Rivalry :: Competition
Process :: Steps
Streets :: of New York
Museum :: History

Wanna Play?....Go HERE

~~~WoW...ThaT wAs ClosE!!~~~

Okay.....people...go back to whatever U were doing....Emergency Over....nothing more to see!....The LapTop is Fine....


Yeah...so it has a crack in it now......
but...."windows has recovered from a serious error"

& KorKor.....is very soooory......
She was just playing with her ball......

& did not see the power cord as she chased the ball off the couch & across the room......

U know?.....Dell makes a pretty resilient 'puter......
It took a header off the table .........& is fine!

okay........back to work!

~~~BuT...ThEy WeRe On SaLe!~~~

Replaced my Pots n Pans =) as well as my Silverware today.

Tuesday Mornings is THE BEST shop for finding gr8 deals for the house........

I guess U could say they are akin to a Ross for Less...but the merchandise is deep discounted high-end merchandise.

U know....all that specialty shit that U probably would think twice about buying at retail from Saks, Bloomies, Needless Markups...etc. At least I would!

I bought Cuisinart Professional Cookware....... If I were to buy this @ retail....approx 340.00....Me?... Naahht so muuuch .....I paid 120.00.




The flatware was marked at 80.00 (Towle...expected).


Me?...


again...naahhtt so muuch (LUV Borat...haha)
I paid 30.00 =)






I admit....I LUV to shop.....til I drop......it is great therapy.....enhancing ones abode.....my sanctuary.....my cocoon...... & it is even better when U find deals like this!! I also found candles normally 10.00 for 1.99 ( nice Vanilla ones in little jars).

oh & a nice Bonus!....tomorrow..not only is it Friday....but the building I work in is getting the security overhauled & we aren't allowed to be there. I think I just might stay up & work on the stuff I had planned to do tomorrow & play in the afternoon.......then again......Aunt Flo flew in today....& Im not feeling sooooo hawt tonite.......Might have to retreat to the boudoir.. Cuddle with the snuggle-pups......watch a litte TV while I laptop it =)

...... yeah......life is good.

~~~My OtheR FAB Pumpkin~~~

Stu-beans Created another pumkin for me =) Isn't she FAB!!

She even has a Jeweled Crown!!!