~escapism~

its been quite the week...
i feel as if a small portion of ME got sucked out...
slowly....
almost didnt notice...
until i assessed my lack of 'zaniness"...
my lack of smartass-ness....
& measured it against my "want to crawl into bed & escape" levels....

i'm at that 'pulled in different directions' spot again....

u know the place.....
its at the crossroads of
"want to crank the tunes, dance & create art"
&
"must be responsible adult, play nice, & make money to support your creative habits"......

I hate standing in those crossroads.....

I'm so much better at being
'suffering artist'.....
'creative nite-owl'...
"crazy neighbor lady w/ all the animals who seems to be having an affair w/ her USP guy'.....

i sit here all day......
playing corporate mouse in the cubical maze....
thinking of all the pictures i could take....
how to set them...
the subjects...
the colours....
the mood.....
the message
the hidden story....

but then when i get my nite pass to leave the maze.....
i forget them....or am tooo tired to get them....or the sun has disappeared...... =(

oh...well...
got another meeting....
to go over another report....
a survey this time...
that i created...
to pick the brains of my pilot testers...wheeeeeee!~
it will be interesting to see the level of responses from the other mice.....

maybe i should add cheese to it when i send it out?.........