Apparently, I am a WHORE now......

Where did I last leave U my BF’s?.....oh yeah, I had received another email in which I was assured that I was to “kick-ass as usual” on my comprehensives…and that he thought it was “hot” that I share my body in my HNT’s & I shouldn’t censor my thoughts in my postings. He also added that he was not sure if I had read the emails from the nite before…but he would say these things in person, but he did not want to take my attention away from school.

So….okay…nice attempt to say he was sorry for flying off the handle the nite before when he stated that I was outright disrespectful to him by posting naked pics of myself in Francisco’s shirt….& offered to leave the house so I could get a booty call to give the shirt back.

Of course this am after getting home from another nite out with the boys (6 homo friends of his….HIS words not mine), he had some additional HATEFUL things to say. He proceeded to accuse me of driving to see Francisco last nite, lying to him about having dinner with my Aunt and Uncle who are in town from Florida, told me I don’t care about him as a person, that I am a WHORE, and I’m just like the asshole husband who makes the money & tells his wife she can leave HIS house.

For starters, I showed him the picture in my camera of dinner out with Auntie Diane and Uncle Frank, I even showed him the leftovers in the frig. I told him the name & location of the restaurant to counter the # of miles he “knows I drove last nite”….(I know…kinda stalkerish…huh?) I told him the reason I didn’t call to tell him I was going to dinner (instead of working on my comps)…..was that they invited me (second time this week), I made it a quick dinner break from studying, and he was across the fuckin valley with his friends……besides I wanted to have dinner with my Aunt and Uncle…just us…catching up….no entertaining conversations, no long lingering cups of coffee.

Without going into tooo much detail, I strongly corrected him on his statement that I do not care about him as a person. He has been living here for almost three years. We started out hot & heavy...but that fizzled out....to the point of no significant other-type relationship for the last year & a 1/2....more roomies than anything else. Last year I had found out some behaviours that were dishonest of his….we talked it out…..he assured me he would change…and I let him stay. YES,…let him stay in my house…..because I enjoyed him….his company….the way he cares about the animals….and supports my school load by helping out. I thought we could work on the relationship to get it back to a trusting level. Apparently, I was off base.

Okay…the whore comment…..I’m still in shock that he even called me that….and I’m really trying to remember what happened in the conversation that caused him to call me that. Oh …I remember….he said when he pulled up my BLOG to show his friends the other nite……”I had 6 homo’s looking over my shoulder, telling me…dude she’s not thinking of U in those pictures..” I asked him how the story of Francisco’s shirt (acquired 3 years ago) which accompanied my HNT constitutes me being a WHORE?!?!?

Needless to say, I asked him to call his friend Barry (who offered him a place to stay to get away from me)…..to find out when he can move-in. I REFUSE to be called a WHORE by anyone….especially someone who I thought believed in me…what I stand for….and that I opened my home to.

So dear BF’s…this weeks POLL centers around how your BLOG represents U. I know, I have no qualms about anyone, friends or family coming across my BLOG. I could answer to anything I have BLOGGED about. I thoroughly enjoy the relationships I have formed thru my BLOG. Readers of my BLOG know more about me than some of my IRL friends. Not that I hide these thoughts from them, we just do not take the time to get to this level.