~~ Am I the Only One? ~~

Lately ......I've been mulling (great Autumn word...huh?) over something I am having a hard time defining.....I've been sitting here typing, backspacing, typing, backspacing, typing different ways to define whats been puzzling me.

So pardon me if this becomes a tangent of sorts. It revolves around how what happens during conversations I have with friends, family & workmates. Specifically I find myself asking "have you read my blog?....I wrote all about it". One of my quirks, traits, pet-peeves is strongly disliking having to repeat myself. I hate doing it... get irritated when I have to..... & have been known to point this out during conversations ....LOL (those closest to me have even informed me that when I do repeat things (for the memory impaired) I have been know to do so in a condescending & pain'd tone. Silly people....if they listened the FIRST time I said it....my TONE wouldnt be an issue! ...HA!

Anywho...I digress......

So....am I alone in this type of interaction? Do you find yourself starting conversations with others by asking them if they've read your blog before getting into the topic of conversation?

What I find funny is that I know in the back of my mind I am doing them a favor....I am trying to save them the drudgery of listening to yet ANOTHER story about Zoe, KorKor & the PinHeads, my weapon, some TV show I've watched, an article I read, the house, me me me ........

but.....in reality what is really happening? I am trying to save myself (because its all about me...remember?) the hassle of repeating. I wonder....do I think because I wrote it down in my blog.....that I shouldn't have to verbalize it too!.....

Is this another, higher, level of arrogance? Have I overachieved again...

Lately, this issue has surfaced during phone conversations or when IM'ing with people who have penis's. Now stay with me here.... what I'm trying to say is that for some reason I have begun to emotionally tie their level of care and interest in my life (other than my kitty) to how up-to-date they are with things I have blogged about.

Usually during the conversation, they will ask "so...hows the PhD coming along?, what have you been up to lately?, whats new ?" & I know they haven't read my blog. I know this because I have (in painful detail) blogged about: my proposal being rejected by my committee chair, buying my weapon, recent changes to the house occupants....re-arranging of furniture....door locks (with pictures!!!), my hot water heater fiasco, & Betty my new 8GB Nano.

NOW....I ask U.......Is it a guy thing?.....do I expect too much from people?....is it me?...am I the oddball because I make note of whats going on in peoples life & stay current in conversations? Or am I being too suspicous & falsely judging their actions as 'caring more about the kitty..than me and whats going on in my life'???

& before you tell me I should be happy they call...& that not everyone has access to a computer or the time to read blogs.......I want you to understand all 3 of these individuals I have experienced this issue with lately.....either - work in the computer industry, work at a computer in their job, or carry a blackberry!~

okay... blogpeeps.......talk to me ......what's your opinion on this?