just gathering my thoughts....& wondering if u still stop by.....
Day 3 Unemployment....
Okay....Day two was too boring to BLOG about....so we will skip it. Seriously tho...day 3 wasn't all that eventful either. LOL I woke up like it was a normal day of getting ready for work, put the babies out to potty.....and realized I possessed that all to coveted option of crawling back into bed for more sleep :).......so that's just what the girls and I did. Slept for 2 more hours, got up dying of thirst.....realized if I was going to quench my need.....I would be driving to get liquids. ( can we say Old mother Hubbard ??) agh!
SOOOO not in the mood to get dressed and presentable for a grocery store run....did second best.....brushed teeth, washed face, put on new Victoria's Secret velour jog outfit, pony'd the hair thru a baseball cap.....and hit McD's drive thru :)
One egg McMuffin (sans dead pig) 2 orange juice, and 1 diet coke later (told you I was thirsty) ...back to bed to watch TV and snuggle with pups.
Now of course, I laid there thinking of all the things I could be doing.....and got up. So much for lazy morning. Paid the bills, assessed finances to see how long I could not work if recruiters can't place me, and caught up on my BLOG reading.
I thought it was time to clean the desk area of all the research books (about 15), writing style guides (3), and piles of research articles, studies and journals. That ended up being this "but if I put this there, then I have to move this...and if I move that, then I have to find a new home for this....and so on..." I did some laundry, and proceeded to set up the new HP scanner, and Microsoft Digital Image Pro9.
Other person who shall still remain nameless came home....said two words....packed an overnite bag....and went over to his friends house.
Okay, so ....all of a sudden I find I am alone. "In the moment". I said one of my goals this year is to be "more in the moment". To just "BE". I can honestly say I had forgotten what this felt like. Peace...quiet....no hurried thoughts, no need to talk, listen, or interact.
I took a nice long HOT bath....soaked with my ears under the waters edge to amplify the solitude. Looked up to see three pups peering over the edge of the tub with worried expressions.
Poor things probably didn't know if I was okay. 
I watched "Shall we Dance" with Richard Gere, Susan Sarandon, and Jennifer Lopez today. Have U seen it?......yeah I cried.... theres a scene where Susan is talking to the PI she hired to find out what her hubby (Gere) is doing at nite. She's explaining why she thinks people get married. In addition to it making sense to me, it also forced me to question the choices I have made regarding relationships.
Susan says the reason is not companionship, or just LOVE. The reason people get married is to ensure there is a witness to their life. Think about it..... marriage says you will witness and validate the others existence. Good or bad, healthy or sick...U know the rest. And no matter how insignificant our little lives are here on earth.....at least one other person will validate your existence. Does my non-married status mean I don't want a witness?.... Am I afraid to let someone past the vault doors? Or am I just too set in my ways...and not willing to establish a new household ? It is a lot of work you know! LOL
Anyway...the movie was sappy, but true. Poor little Zoe...I hugged her so hard during that movie. LOL Okay.....off to watch another movie........and get some sleep. Peace my BF's
SOOOO not in the mood to get dressed and presentable for a grocery store run....did second best.....brushed teeth, washed face, put on new Victoria's Secret velour jog outfit, pony'd the hair thru a baseball cap.....and hit McD's drive thru :)
One egg McMuffin (sans dead pig) 2 orange juice, and 1 diet coke later (told you I was thirsty) ...back to bed to watch TV and snuggle with pups.
Now of course, I laid there thinking of all the things I could be doing.....and got up. So much for lazy morning. Paid the bills, assessed finances to see how long I could not work if recruiters can't place me, and caught up on my BLOG reading.
I thought it was time to clean the desk area of all the research books (about 15), writing style guides (3), and piles of research articles, studies and journals. That ended up being this "but if I put this there, then I have to move this...and if I move that, then I have to find a new home for this....and so on..." I did some laundry, and proceeded to set up the new HP scanner, and Microsoft Digital Image Pro9.
Other person who shall still remain nameless came home....said two words....packed an overnite bag....and went over to his friends house.
Okay, so ....all of a sudden I find I am alone. "In the moment". I said one of my goals this year is to be "more in the moment". To just "BE". I can honestly say I had forgotten what this felt like. Peace...quiet....no hurried thoughts, no need to talk, listen, or interact.
I took a nice long HOT bath....soaked with my ears under the waters edge to amplify the solitude. Looked up to see three pups peering over the edge of the tub with worried expressions.
Poor things probably didn't know if I was okay. 
I watched "Shall we Dance" with Richard Gere, Susan Sarandon, and Jennifer Lopez today. Have U seen it?......yeah I cried.... theres a scene where Susan is talking to the PI she hired to find out what her hubby (Gere) is doing at nite. She's explaining why she thinks people get married. In addition to it making sense to me, it also forced me to question the choices I have made regarding relationships.
Susan says the reason is not companionship, or just LOVE. The reason people get married is to ensure there is a witness to their life. Think about it..... marriage says you will witness and validate the others existence. Good or bad, healthy or sick...U know the rest. And no matter how insignificant our little lives are here on earth.....at least one other person will validate your existence. Does my non-married status mean I don't want a witness?.... Am I afraid to let someone past the vault doors? Or am I just too set in my ways...and not willing to establish a new household ? It is a lot of work you know! LOL
Anyway...the movie was sappy, but true. Poor little Zoe...I hugged her so hard during that movie. LOL Okay.....off to watch another movie........and get some sleep. Peace my BF's
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'presentable'? 'grocery store'? am i supposed to be looking 'presentable' before going out to the grocery??? i had no idea. i learn so much from others via this medium. thankyou
well...B-man...its all relative you know :) and I was clearly not even relatively presentable yesterday am......perhaps some would say "scary-hair!".....LOL
Supreme blog entry! Yes, I too saw the movie and thought that whole scene was awesome. And you are right, it's a lot of work to 'alter' a household. Some times it's worth it, some times not and some times you wonder. I think there are moments where you welcome the witness but perhaps after a while either that particular witness isn't 'valid' any longer or it just isn't deemed worth the alterations. Where there is a beginning there is an ending...that's all we really need to know. Well, that and where to find good Chinese food! Love ya, mean it! : )
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That's an interesting definition to marriage. Had never thought of it that way :)
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